Ever feel like you just need to do something? Something different. Something new.
I am having a down day today, which isnt unheard of with me, but happens less and less these days.
Fundementally I am very happy. I have the most patient boyfriend, retarded friends, some lovely family and a gorgeous nephew on the way. But I cant shake the feeling of depression sometimes.
It sounds selfish just writing it.
I have never been a fan of Valentines Day, it has no real meaning to me and i’ve always stated that it doesn’t bother me to not celebrate it. But now I am in a relationship, I would actually like to do something. Nothing mushy, just a simple night in together. Possibly a late night walk. But he has gone out, to see his newly engaged best friend, and because I have never previously aired my feelings about this, he doesn’t think I care. But now I kinda do. And I am a little bummed out.
I feel so very female.
I feel like the luckiest girl in the world sometimes. I have a boy who really takes care of me. He puts a roof over my head, he makes me tea, and he makes me laugh more than anything. I may not have any money, or a job anymore, or even an actual home, but as long as I have him behind me [no pun there…] I know it will all work out ok.
It’s not laziness, it’s not giving a fuck.
I, Caleb Bradley, am going to work a minimum wage job, Live in the cheapest accommodations i can find, continue to not care about a thing except eating what i need, smoking my cigs, and other flammable products, and live a peaceful life with no outrageous goals. My only goal, is to be happy, and that is it. Anyone who tries to push me to go for more in life will be ignored, and if they continue to do so, they will also be shunned.